Just wanted to let you know that even though it seems I abandoned this account completely, it's not true
Those who follow me on tumblr have probably gotten sick of my posts for the past month, since it turned into a Naruto-hellpit......
To clarify this more - I followed the series for 12 years only to get utterly shattered with the end and with the retcons and miserable explanations that were supposed to cover the whole disaster. I won't say any more because this is not the proper account for this kind of thing but I surely want to apologize to those who had to endure that hell on tumblr...and thank those who kept following me there even after it.
I focused too much on the other devart account I have because Naruto ended...and the impact was so strong..., so please, forgive me. I also had a lot of work with the movie (and will have), but I haven't fogotten about CatRat at all
Graduand movie news>>>raintalker.tumblr.com/post/103…I have only three months left to finish my graduand movie, the whole thing is now twelve minutes long! I have 99 percent of the animation done, outlined, colored.... But I still don't have any proper backgrounds, nor the audio/music. Hopefully it'll work out somehow during these two months...I am terribly scared...
It's ironic that during these three years I faced my weaknessess and I had to keep going even though I had a crushing depression about my worth as a filmmaker. I'm not a very assertive person, I have tons of issues and I know that I'm not the best of best.... For some reason I always carried this thought that if I am not the best of the best then I must probably be of no worth at all.....
How wrong is that? I keep telling my friends how precious they are, I keep admiring people who aren't on the top list yet, have enough enthusiasm and passion to work hard on things they love..... I keep preaching about being positive...while drowning in my own negativity...but that's how it goes. I am sure everyone wants to see their friends and loved ones happy so they just endure and try to make them smile even though they feel like trash them selves.
It was so hard to keep working on the thing while being 100 percently sure that I am garbage. Seriously.... I felt like garbage, things that happened around me made me feel like garbage and it just kept getting worse. Yet...... I loved
the characters and the work so much.... I love
it so much..... I really do hope this movie will get to be properly born and screened on a festival somewhere... I really hope. Wish me luck, please, send your prayers.... I'll be needing them more than ever in the upcomming months
T__T I was able to come this far thanks to the support of my family and to the support of my friend (
♥) ....she made me fall in love with the movie over again and made me open my eyes a bit more to my self-worth and the worth of the movie as well. It's not technically on high-level, nor I have a supergreat style.... But accepting it and embracing this as something that I worked hard for, even though it's far from perfect, is something that helped me to move forward in small steps... . Thank you very much, it means a lot to me.)
For anyone interested to see gorgeous fanarts to the thing and some screenshots (that are a bit outdated now), browse the tag balloon girl
or baloon girl
on my tumblr page (raintalker.tumblr.com). It's not much but I'll make sure to upload something nice to this acount too.
I wish you a Happy to-come Holiday
Enjoy it to the fullest!!!
I wish there was snow here