for anyone who keeps sending me messages by raintalker, literature
Literature
for anyone who keeps sending me messages
but I do not know you in person/in flesh/we never physically met. Please, start respecting my boundaries I put up with much effort. I write this as literature to not having to resort writing journals again. Instead of writing me shallow "emotional" messages about how you "worry about me" or cheap mirroring techniques like " oh I went through EXACTLY the SAME ...blah blah...I know how you feel" - no you don't. If anyone truly went through same, hope you get better. But to those immitating real people to try mirroring my pain...as if we were close friends...please, stop. - if you have tact and you actually read through what I write and draw...you would realize that there is nothing to worry about. That I am not "declining in mental health" - it is the exact opposite. I found the strength and gut to actually resist the abuse done in secret. To out the abuser. Call them out. And communicate to close this up. I found the resolve to resist the gangstalking and manipulative mesages and
Your words have become dead leaves,because your actions proven them to be just that. You could write how you miss me in one breath and then write how I was the worst thing in other account. You could secretly write nasty sexual things and then paint me as a predator in front of others, because I was so open with feelings. If you ever wondered why I could be nice one moment and nasty another - because you could write something nice one day and then I bumped into completely opposite information or something shocking just bit later. Then reacting. Freaking out. Anyone would. Were you thinking that hiding something will not make anyone find it. What I read was enough for me to understand that I do not wish to be in a relationship with someone who acts face-value in one way, but hides pure hatred for me in a deep trench, behind my back...wishing worst upon me. Or twisting reality in a way it never happened. I tried to help by being a friend. By being honest with feelings. You rejected